We watched election coverage last night until about 10. I checked first thing this morning, still in bed. I’ll be honest – I was relieved there were no results yet, because I had a meeting first thing this morning with a man at work who likes talking politics. As a blue-leaning person in a very red state, this is never my jam, especially on election
I, like much of the world, have been holding my breath today. I know it’s pointless, and at this point what will happen will happen, but I keep refreshing the results page anyway. I feel unmoored when I don’t know what’s going on. Once I know the news, even if it’s bad, I can react. Until then I’m in limbo. Today is the fourth day of NaNoPoblano, and while I wanted to write something that wasn’t about the election, I can’t really think about anything else. So here’s a quick list of what I’m thinking today.
- It astounded me to see a huge number of international folks I follow watching election night coverage as closely as I was. I knew that the US election was a world event, but I didn’t really know it until I saw it for myself.
- Before last night, I thought there might be some truth to a statement I saw a few weeks ago: Tennessee isn’t really a red state, but a non-voting state. Now I am not so sure, and I’m naively disappointed.
- I was also struck by this research on young voters. Young voters seem to be getting more and more overwhelmingly progressive – except the white ones. So many people, including me, have viewed this election as a referendum on white supremacy, and this year I’ve become more and more convinced that it’s white people who will need to push to end white supremacy. It’s us who hold the social power, so we’re the ones who have to open it up. Why don’t we seem to have it in us?
I’ve seen a lot of doom and gloom today. Just the fact that this election is still so close after the shitshow that is Trump’s adminsitration is disheartening. But truly, I’m not ready to give up. As I noted above, even though young white voters lean Trump, many, many other young voters do not. The races in traditionally red states, like Georgia, have been surprisingly close. Progressive candidates are even making headway here in Tennessee, even if they did’t win.
I’m not ready to give up hope in a more equitable America, regardless of this election’s outcome, because that’s the America I want to live in. And while I wait for the election results, and think about where I want to get involved going forward, I’m also making sure to take a deep breath. I hope you are, too.
How are you feeling today? What are you doing to ease your election anxiety?
NaNoPoblano 2020: 4/30