So, it’s been two months since I did my first goal post for this summer. In the midst of getting engaged, graduating, moving, job hunting, adjusting to a new job, and wedding planning, this blog has fallen by the wayside a bit. But I miss it, and everyone I’ve come to get to know a little bit through WordPress. I haven’t kept up with the blogging community, or my goals, as much as I wish I could this summer. But today I get to remedy that by taking a quick look at what my goals were for this summer (yikes).
- Be selfless — nothing in my life affects me and only me. Honestly, I’d forgotten all about this one. I don’t know that I’ve been more selfish than normal (though I definitely have my moments), but I haven’t intentionally been selfless either. Although I’ve managed to get my attitude somewhat, kind of in check about having a traditional, fairly expensive wedding, which was why I made this goal in the first place. I better not think about that too much, though, so moving on.
- Talk to myself. I have, but again, no more than normal. Although a couple times lately I’ve noticed myself sliding into a sour mood, and told myself to get it together, and it’s helped a little (when it doesn’t make me more annoyed than I already am, anyway). Actually, one of my new coworkers has helped with this a bit — she’s always sweet and kind, even when she’s stressed or pissed or doesn’t feel good, and it’s a great example for me.
- Make it a point to speak to people I don’t see on a regular basis. Well, I’ve spoken to people I don’t see often, but only a few times has it been me initiating. Still, mission accomplished? I guess?
- Always tell my fiance if something is bothering me. And here, folks, we have a work in progress. There was something a few days ago, and I brought it up (after a few days of stewing and knowing I should bring it up), and he didn’t see the issue as a problem and/or was too uncomfortable to talk about it like I wanted to, and so I let it go. So I guess props to me for actually speaking up, but fail to both of us for not following through. I’m hoping premarital counseling might help with our weird communication issues.
- Be assertive. I have tried to do this. A big thing has been in choosing wedding details. I don’t normally like being the one to make choices, especially about small details, because I usually don’t care that much. But I’ve had to make myself care, and I’ve had to learn to just say, “Let’s do this,” because as the bride-to-be, I’m the one everyone turns to for final decision making. As I’ve learned the policies at my new job, too, I’ve tried to be assertive and confident. I can’t run to my supervisor every time a customer gives me an issue, especially if it’s about a policy I know back and forth. I need to present myself as competent, even if I’m not as confident as I seem.
This summer has been a whirlwind, and it’s not going to stop anytime soon. The most I can do, I guess, is try to enjoy it as much as possible. That’s what life’s about anyway, isn’t it?